packed up to ship out.

bonjour! hello friends, family, those i adore~

i am a bundle of excitement and nervous energy. in two weeks from today's date, i will be in france. i have recently realized that when an idea strikes, one must jump towards it with full force. a few wise souls brought to my attention that we each have the ability to strive towards what we desire, its no one's fault but our own if we choose to be apathetic in regards to our lives. i haven't had to make many decisions about my life, thus far. i want to be forced out of my comfort zone, feel the tramatic results of not knowing, i want to feel settled in not being settled. life is a constant learning process, if we ever stop considering the world around us and forcing ourselves to branch out, we are left comatose and incomplete beings. (in my oh-so-humble opinion).

i feel ill in my stomach when i think of how much i am going to miss everyone here. chelsea once expressed that, although she loves to travel and explore, the more people she meets and grows to love, the more people she longs for no matter where she finds herself. this is the problem with space, time and love. "absense makes the heart grow fonder".. "or forgettful"... robbin hood quote for you there. couldn't resist. i am very lucky to be able to embark on my travels though, and will eat up every moment of it. plus, really, time goes by very quickly, as i am starting to realize. adults have said this to me my entire life and i have waved it away; now i think i may become one who tries to impart this knowledge on younger generations, probably to no avail. its valuable to remember that we don't know everything, yeah? also, am i an adult now? hmmm.

more tangents coming early march, only released to select audiences....