worst time to blog.

blogging seems inappropriate at this hour, but seeing as i don't have much else to do...
its 4:48 am, a painful hour, still dark out. my stomach aches and i feel sick. theres no one awake in the hostel, save maybe a security person milling about. its too early to be awake. i'll tempted to sleep, hence why i blog. john-james took off on a plane from nice-paris, to get his connecting flight home. le sad.

i return to clermont-ferrand today. i'm happy to have this time with chels, as i know it will be a bit of time before we see each other again. ah life.

the deep homesickness has set in. i have too many amazing people in my life, being gone for any amount of time is painful, however equally rewarding it may be. i keep trying to decipher meaning behind my time over here. i know i have learned some about myself, learned what i like and do not, seen some beautiful places, learned who to travel with.........but........
yeah.

i am listening to quite possibly the worst music i have heard in my entire life. this hostel has a huge main room, which is currently pumping an awful tv channel's music, left on from hours ago. french music leaves something to be desired. english music played over here is the worst stuff we pump out. impressive really.