doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?

i've written about how spread out my friends are, well, my family is full of world travelers as well. oklahoma, alaska/north carolina, california, colorado, texas, japan. carol king, i don't know why people don't stay in one place anymore.
i sure wish we could all be in the california villa right now. it would be summer, i would be harassing my cousins to swim in the pool with me, all of them. i would convince one and then move on to the others, ranting about how i wanted them ALL to go swimming with me. i can be stubborn. i've pulled the pool routine since i was a kid and i would do it today if we were all there. some of my best childhood memories are of swimming with my couins, at their pool and the beach. california sunshine and water, there is nothing better. i want to slip on my swimsuit, pour heavy lotion on my body and jump into the sunshine.
two of my cousins, luke and emily, are in japan; this weekend japan was hit with a heavy earthquake and than a tsunami caused by the earthquake. i'm very happy to report that my family is safe and with shelter, food, and water- although water took awhile. mama and i were able to chat with them on the tele, which made us feel somewhat relieved. at least we were able to hear their voices. emily's laugh is outrageously perfect.
so now we wait to hear more news on the nuclear power plants and hope to god they figure out how to cool the reactors. the situations this world puts us on in are incredible. are they meant to make us realize our insignificance? but it is natural to have the world shift and crumble, turn and mold. we're just small moments in time and space, so fragile yet we act so entitled. sigh.
le sigh.

i miss my husband. i've been filling up my hours with news reports, weekend with mama, beading, letters, shows, but they only temporarily distract. i want a cuddle.

i am eager for new things to come, new moves and changes. but i worry too, what if i don't get in? then what? seriously, then what?
sometimes i get a pit in my stomach from anticipation. please please please, i plead.
mostly i feel calm due to my husband's presence (note-other wonderful people ease me as well), but right now i don't have this luxury. so instead i play with my hair incessantly, give myself shoulder aches from this motion and then fix my hair, relax my arm and stretch it out. and repeat.
le sigh.
i'm not complaining, just stressing. but there are always things to stress about- there always will be- from the natural disasters and loved ones near, to school and job distress- but i need to learn to deal in a way that is beneficial, profitable even if i can channel my energy.
i'm looking into channeling- have been dappling.

miss my girlfriends. come and we'll take walks and talk each other's ears off.